Well, today was definitely more hectic than harmonious. It was harmonious enough, with kids happily reading, playing at our homeschool co-op and not putting up too much of a fuss as we tidied up before supper. But I know I am not in a harmonious state of mind. I'm finding my mind is working overtime when my head hits the pillow. It's reorganizing and reprioritizing my to-do list...over and over and over again. Which makes for a late, late night and a late, late morning before I get moving. Our routine gets off, and then my morale plummets. It's not looking like those ideals I wrote about yesterday, does it?
Still, I'm going to keep the faith that things will get better. After all, we're only two days into the challenge and there are twenty-six left to go. I will learn something during that time, won't I? I will take some actions to change what's driving today's insanity, won't I? I can resolutely say yes...I'm committed to what I want our holiday season to look and feel like. I know I won't be perfect every day and that there will be slips here and there. But we will grow and adjust and learn as we go. Simplifying is a process and not an end state, is it not?
So, today's challenge is to think of how I want my children to experience the holidays. Oh, I want so very much for them! I want them to feel deep down in their hearts the magic of the holidays...that even if it is only for one short moment, all can be good and right in the world. I want their eyes to widen in wonder as they ponder some of the mysteries of life...mysteries that perhaps need no explanation but simple acknowledgement. I want their hearts to feel full of the goodness and light that they send out into the world. I want them to feel smooth transitions throughout their days and weeks...that their days have flow and that it feels more like a graceful dance than a race. I want them to experience the joy of giving and the graciousness of receiving. I want them to be thankful for all they have...all the love that surrounds them, nourishment that sustains them, and material comforts that enrich their lives. I want something in our holiday traditions, new or old, to resonate with them so much that they feel inclined to share it with the families that they raise of their own.
I guess I want them to be able to look back on their Christmases with fondness, knowing that they had experiences that fed their hearts and souls and that they will walk into the new year with a full cup.